it makes me feel better being able to pen my thoughts down.

this week feels hmm i really dont know. myraid of feelings.
i know you got your projects and i should understand that u're busy.
but i have grown over too dependent on you and clingy on to you that, not being able to see you or talk to you feels . but my level for disappointment has far improved greatly, i no longer feel disappointed when you have to go offline leaving me alone in the night.
that should be a good thing though, right?

im not sure if im supposed to feel this way this week or am i even entitled and allowed or being fair to you by feeling this way.
but the least you could do though u are busy, could be trying to at least strike a conversation with me or just give me a call so i can hear your voice.

smth i just cant accept or understand the issue. that if im able to do it, why cant u at least spend some time, i just need some time talking with you.

you seem different, u seem changed. i hardly feel you're by my side. i hardly able to feel ur, love,care and concern for me. maybe it's just me being too sensitive, so dont u worry.

just focus on ur studies and be happy. it might prob be suffice for me. though sometimes i really want to tell you how i feel but i dnot want to throw on anymore stress, burden or worries on ur shoulders. though it sometimes really hurts trying to keep it all inside and putting on a happy and brave front infront of others. but everynight it just feels so alone.

crying myself to sleep seems to be a common occurrence. i should stop but i have a weak emotional side of me which im trying to be strong and improve.
u're often in my mind during lessons, worrying about our issues during school. hiding everything pretty well i suppose.

i know you're already pretty stressed up much, therefore i have decided and trying not to talk to you about my school. my studies are really worrying and scaring me to the core. honestly im feeling afraid. letting out my stress by crying alone. im not sure if im even capable or even able to make it through.

but i believe i can be strong.

but for now, ill just be quiet and guide you and comfort you. il cope with my worries alone.