Maybe im being too sensitive right now am i? I should give you some space. The whole thing seemed to have repeated itself. It's really painful. You don't seem to care much anymore. I can't sense ur warmth and security. im feeling lost and insecure . i just really hope you can learn to be understanding towards my actions and respect me. showing you love public is difficult you should know why. is to protect both of us, im doing what i can, trying my best. ill try my best to accomodate to your pride that you have, putting aside mine to make things look brighter. u said im not used to loving somebody. but im already trying my very best. rmb every single detail. even though guys may express their care differently but it's not an excuse either. when things are sreious you unknowingly joke about other stuff. Not aware of the seriousness of my tone. Then again it hurts. Do u really mean everything you said? i wonder. i started this blog just for my solace. to allow myself to feel a wole lot better compared to keeping it inside. i just feel i might break down one day if it continues. but no matter what i'll not give up. there's hope. truthfull im upset you had to abandon your dream partially cos of me. i feel useless and selfish towards you. i want you to be happy but i doubt you really are. im really sorry.