Hi solace.

fk. the crying time is here again.
just suddenly the wave of stress hits me agn pretty hard.
really worrying and scaring me to the core.
im really hopeless.

defer was successful im thankful for that.
had one of the worst scares i had in my life,
gave me a mental shock for 2 days.
idk why i feel like crying again gosh i suck do i.
sheevonne toh i need you):
u're e person that never fails to make me laugh, i be really who i am when im with you.
that special inseparable bond we shared
sometimes i really want to give u a nice tight hug and thank you for everything u have done.

is it just me or you.
are we really meant for each other
does our character mean to match
sometimes i really dont know what to do or supposed to do.
maybe im just stupid or too self centered.
i cant seem to change.

the promos are just 76 days away,
i dont see any postive light ahead,
can i even go through this
im really a sucker at stress aint i
i seem to suck at everything
i always cry when i write in this blog.
u said i shld try to control, and im already am trying to control my emotional state.

i dont know what to do.

this blog is good for venting of anger, emo-ing.
the fear of not being able to make it to uni is just too overpowering.

i think by the end of As i woul have prob collected a bucket or pail of water. well is too extreme

deep down. i feel so darn alone. fighting this battle all by myself.

i seriously lack the discpline nowadays to stop myself from eating and studying hard.
fuck.